It’s December 22! Yay! It has been a year since I officially became single. 365 days? Whew, that was quick! :)
Alright, so before I sleep, I’d like to share my thoughts. You may stop reading. This is just non-sense. Hahaha!
A year ago, If I remember it right, I was chatting with a friend through YM. I was seeking for advices because during that time, I was really having a hard time deciding. I was so confused and I didn’t know what to do.
A year ago, I was calling my ex. He was not answering my calls at first. But after a few missed calls, he answered. He said he was tired and didn’t want to talk to me. I remember, I was crying. I can’t remember exactly why, but one thing that’s clear, I was crying SO HARD over the phone. I even uttered bad words so he got mad. I forgot how we ended the day.
The following day, which was the 22nd of December, I remember attending the wedding of my cousin which was near his place. We were exchanging text messages during that time but I knew they were all “cold SMS.” I could already feel the tension, confusion, betrayal, and a lot more of different emotions. I knew there was something bad that’ll happen. Late afternoon, he came into our house. There was dead air when we saw each other. I started crying as he speaks. It was not a bucket of sincere words, I know. But I just let my emotions came out. Whewwwww, waiiiiiiiiit, that was heavy! :)) So Im not gonna have it detailed. Hahaha!
I’m just thinking that I survived the 365 days of being single. I struggled, but still, I survived. Those 365 days were a mixed of happiness and misery, yet I enjoyed my journey! Reaaaaaally. I’ve learned a looooooooooooooot. I gained more friends. I got to love myself more. I had the chance to go to the places I’ve never been. I bravely did what I thought I couldn’t do. I was able to face my fears. I got the freedom I didn’t have for three years. I had the opportunity to be the real me - no limitations, no pretentions. I realized I am deeply and sincerely loved by the people surrounding me.
A year ago, I was in pain. But year ago was a blessing. It made me stronger. It created a better “me.”
Year after, here I am, typing this nonsense shit because I can already feel my singlehood/ness! Whhhhuuuuuut is SMP? Hahahaha! Merry christmas!!!! ♥
