Confession

Last Monday, we had a recollection at Malayan. Nung una, ayaw pa namin kasi ako, personally, nagtataka ko, bakit 1 1/2 hrs lang yung recollection. But since, we were "forced," gora na kami ni Nica and the rest of the Student Trainees.

The recollection was held on the 10th floor. Sa Training Room, to be specific. The room's temperature was quite cold. Tama nga si Sir Ed, malamig daw dun. Maliit lang din siya, siguro 20 people lang yung kayang iaaccomodate ng maayos. So right after we entered the room, the "recollection" started. It was Father Rujin (Im not sure of the name, basta he's from DBTS Makati daw) who did the recollection, or the "talk" I must say.

So after the talk, sabi samin, may confession daw. I asked Nica first if she wants to, nakakahiya kasi baka hintayin nya ko kung ako lang magcoconfess. So sabi niya okay lang daw. I feel that I have the need para magconfess. My last confession was 2 yrs ago pa. So ayun na nga, I talked to Father and enumerated the sins Ive done (lahat ng kinaya kong alalahanin) . Tapos the last thing that I confessed eh yung I am still bearing grudge for the people who betrayed me. I was teary eyed then. Isip ko kasi, nailabas ko sa isang tao yung feelings na hindi ko masabi sa iba. I told him, "Father, I always wanted to forgive them. Kahit na sinaktan nila ko. Gusto ko mawala ung feeling na mabigat kasi alam ko sa sarili ko di ko pa sila napapatawad. And I am not sure if my heart is ready to forgive."

"Forgiveness and justice always come together." this were the words I cant forget during confession. I asked father, "What if they never had the chance to give an apology for what theyve done?" Sabi niya, kung nakikita ko naman daw yung taong nagbabago, thats the time I should forgive them. He added na out of 10 people, 1 tao lang daw yung may guts to say sorry for his mistakes. Thats the nature of humankind.

I wanted to cry infront of him, pero nahihiya ako. Sobrang gumaan kasi yung pakiramdam ko nung sinabi ko yun sa kanya and yung sinabi niya yung advices niya. Naniniwala ako sa Time heals all wounds, mas naniwala pa ko nung si Father na yung nagsabi. And I was very grateful na I had the chance to join the recollection and confession. :)

GOOD VIBES NA LAGI. ;)

THANK YOU LORD! I LOVE YOU!